Yeah, well, I feel a little bit traited.... (do I say that in right english??) This is what's wrong: I know a girl from a internet site for a few years now. We became friends. She's about two years younger than me. We always talked on msn and sites. Mostly about what happened that day, but sometimes about problems too. She always said in a sad way that no-one loved her, that boys don't like her, that she would be ugly, that she was scared about everything. I understood her problems, because I thought that finally someone feeled what I feel too. But how stupid could I be?! I shouldn't have trust her! She'll never understand how I feel, eventhough she said she did understand.

We still talked a lot on msn, but meanwhile, she'd got about six boyfriend and many friends at her school. And she was still moaning about things like: "Oh I'm so ugly!! Boys don't like me! Everone hates me! Even my parents don't like me. I will always be alone!!" Yeah right. Does she actually know how it feels to be really alone? To know that you'll always be alone and that there will be no-one who cares about you? I bet she didn't. That's why I'm angry at her. Stop nagging about your 'bad' life, go and fuck your six boyfriends and leave me alone!! (Maybe Tessa would know about who I'm talking)

It must be a great feeling: knowing that there's always someone who cares about you. It must be great to know that you're never alone. But, yeah, I don't know that feeling, and I probably never will.